Almost Done

The semester is finally coming to an end....holy cow has it been a long one. Why did I go back to school? Oh Right, to better myself.

I really don't know how I'm bettering myself when....
...I'm always stressed out...
...I'm spreading myself too thin...
...I get to spend less time with Audrey...
...I never make dinner...
...I'm so exhausted that I don't do the laundry, do the dishes, basically be a mom.

I'm really not looking for any sympathy or words of encouragement. I know I'm doing my best and that's what matters....But, it is nice to moan and groan about it once in a while. Really it's only due to the fact that I had a final at 7 and 9 this morning. My assignment for the 9 o'clock final magically messed up last night and 11:30(the audio was 14 seconds off) and I had to spend another 2 hours fixing it and I had already spend 5 hours working on it. (In hind site I should have not worked that long on the project, but the problem is I am a perfectionist when it comes to my assignments. I want to be that "A" student. Plus assignments and projects are really the only way for me to show my teachers how good a student I am. I get B's or even C's on tests because I have such bad test anxiety. It's really horrible. I like to show them that even though I don't test well I am very good at practical applications and hope they give me the benefit of the doubt when it comes to grading time. Hey, it worked when I was pregnant. I didn't even take the written final in one of my classes, I didn't even show up to the final, and my amazing teacher gave me an A in class because he knew I knew my stuff. I'm totally going off on a tangent....sorry)

So, I was up until 1:30 fixing it (I still don't think it's the best that it could have been) and I still had to look over my photography notes for the 7 am final. And believe me that final was intense. We had a written exam and then a practical exam and we had to turn in our final project. I set the alarm for 5:30, so that I could be up by 6, so that I could look over my notes and then start getting ready at 6:30 in order to leave at 6:45. No, I did not shower this morning. No, I do not have make-up on. No, I do not smell. But I was so nervous for the day I woke up several times throughout the short night and then ended up being pretty much awake at 5. I tried to go back to sleep but it didn't work. Then, after all that test taking and stressed outness, I had to work until 5 pm. Good thing I didn't go to guard tonight I might have started to cry. Did I mention that on top of working full time, going to school 3/4 time, being a mom, and a wife I'm doing guard? Yes, I am stretched out. But I am pretty positive I am not the only one. I just have to read your blogs and stalk you on facebook to know that I am not alone in this crazy crazy life.

Plus the fact that Patrick has a final tomorrow...that means I can't go home and just sit on the couch. He's going to go to the Library while I'm home with our little ball of energy Audrey. Seriously she is such a ball of fire. Like in the Incredibles Jack Jack attacks. I think most of you know what I am talking about. I doubt she cooperates and goes down at her normal bed time.

My goodness, I am getting sleepy just thinking about they day I've had.

Basically this is the gist of the post...woohoo! School is hard...I am stressed...and want to sleep.

Seriously this post was not a "woe is me" post I just needed to vent about the day.